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[Dec. 9th, 2006|04:11 am] |
Lately i've been down with having to face a lot of highschool problems resurfacing along with the usual seasonal and satanic female problems but today added a fresh new glow:
I felt like i could get away with getting Mark to cook a dinner with us and hang out with our friends and we'd all be happy and have a grande old time.
Then he took us all to the brickhouse and I realized my punishment for making him awkwardly hang out and strike up conversation with the many secondary friends.
and lo...i was forced to do the same
Zain, Anna, Abel and Marina was all I had to talk to
I'm afriad of Anna so i hid from her
but Zain and Marina were fine when i got over the stumbling block of:
"heeeeeeey"
I'm not good at social interaction regardless of my outward demeanor.Especially if i dont know a person well or havent talked to them in a while
If anything, I'd give the world to change my outward demeanor.
boh
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| WHO WILL BUY? |
[Aug. 6th, 2006|11:14 pm] |
Someone
Someone
Someone
come with me to this: http://www.bookeaters.org/ . sept 1st seattle
by which i mean drive. I would buy you a ticket to pay for it and i'll love you forever. It will be amazing.
I love you all already for even considering
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| Only In Alberta |
[Jun. 3rd, 2006|11:45 pm] |
A) Do I say I'm a filmmaker from Vancouver
B) Do I go to a $100 a plate fundraiser which still has a band which plays two-steppin' new-country.
is one symptomatic from the other?
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| Avoid the Noid |
[Mar. 9th, 2006|02:53 am] |
I had a bit of an orgasm when i finally got T.S. Eliot and his religo-annoying prattling drama out of my life. But frankly getting rid of the biggest essay of this semester early on has left me in a void of not caring about anything. I've got about 100 lines of Pinter to memorize, Research on more obscure british people to pear down to some perfect thing to post online for no students to read , two more essays and , oh yes, that mindbendingly beautiful and moving piece of art I must produce and summarize for committee by mid-april (Sophie hasn't been recieving my messages for like weeks so i'm behind on that too)...I just can't be asked though as it's raining and I'm done with the worst
Lynne Stopkewitch came and talked to our class yesterday. After dealing with Scott Smith who i thought to be my hero but turned up lacklustre she was completely brilliant. A little too hip an adult for my personal taste but full of actual wisdom and enough Molly Parker anecdotes to keep me grinning for 3 hours. Plus we got to fondle typewritten scripts of 'Kissed' and teleplays from 'the L-word' which also made me a little dizzy with giddiness. She made it seem doable again, attainable to be where she is. I actually mustered myself to talk to her a little privately afterwards and she has almost convinced me to do a masters. You never hear about it but the way she layed it out it seemed to be the best thing for someone who maybe isn't as good a shameless self-promoter or worker as me. But then of course I'd have to have a better idea for a feature (beyond the much plugged Zombie v. Cowboy idea).
Also, Warren and I saw Tristram Shandy today which i've been waiting for with baited breath since I a) fell in comedic lust with Steve Coogan and b) fell in literary love with the book. It was all I wanted and more. Coogan stretching dramatically and doing his usual stunts. All sorts of Alan Partridge and book references. God-damn.
Oh, and Mike Hingston wins the "find of the year' award for showing me the british show "peep show". Not only is the style so brilliant i will almost undoubtedly cop it at one point in my career, it is also the funnies thing i've seen in ages. AGES! It makes me a bit depressed though as the hilariously pathetic character so often follows my personal thought processes. So I suggest you check it out but forget I just said that unless you want to know the inner workings of my brain. Which of course you don't
Oh and cancelling classes while i'm on the fucking bus is ridiculous. Unless you are going to personally phone me don't fight the snow and give up quickly you pricks. Lots of people have only night classes and dont have wicked fast cars so they leave the house early when it says "classes on schedule, school open, busses delayed" to try harder to get to class so they dont see when you change it at 3 o fucking clock.
BAAAH!!!!
Will someone deliver me groceries?
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| Reason #8901 I like the middle of the night... |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|03:00 am] |
Because it gives me time to use facial recognition software to find out this man:
Is almost face twins with this woman:
And it HAS to be true because it's SOFTWARE!!!
In related news Mayana looks like Patrick Stewart, I have black roomates because Yuka looks like Brandy and Jason looks like Gregory Hines, Rhianna looks like Israeli pop singers, Amy looks like Emma Thompson, Katie should be an Indian Model , Joel may be the 13th president of the United States , Ian looks like the Thorpedo, Mike Morelli looks like Joshua Jackson...
And in an astonishing TWO SEPARATE PHOTOS Warren is twinned with Rod Stewart
and i am of course a french pianist but we all knew that
eerily Dan Pinese and Dock's faces are completely unique. Your parents did a good genetic job.
I love your faces
CAM
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| reason 497 I will never be a celebrity: |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|02:50 am] |
Clubs
I can be ON THE LIST to get in and it still takes the best lawyering I can muster to get myself in.
Oh, and also the highest level of fun I can muster is goofily dancing with people I know.
If you want something more you're in trouble
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| Dear World |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|01:59 am] |
a) thank you for the prompt and, actually, happy-making response to the last post. I now know there are options for moving in and Maria, you are dead on with that call center talk. They don't give a flying fudge when you come or go and will hire you the moment you walk in. I'll surely make looking into inbound call centers a priority (i cannot phone people eek!)
b) It is reading break for me!
that is to say from tomorrow until thursday I have no class. A full goddamn week. If I were the king of the world I'd want very badly to go on a holiday. get away somewhere so that I can stop thinking about the swirling miasma of headache which is my life. But it sounds like I cannot since...yeah...travel...takes cars...and money...etc.
Anyway, we should plan to have fun and be crazy this weekend. Seriously.
I am going to act childish and go on long trips away from home and there's nothing you can do to stop me
Any crazy wild shenanigans?
CAM
P.S. Amy i hope your nose is fine. (sure it is). and i hope that everything worked out well for all that. Here's hoping it will add to your sexiness
love
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| Who needs a hug |
[Mar. 3rd, 2006|02:40 am] |
First
Does anybody have the time/energy/patience and/or want a favor from me badly enough to edit an essay for me? I've got a 10 pger due monday for my Nazi english prof and my arguements are shaky at best so I need to make sure it's solid and my other editor is gone. So yeah, If you are up for it tell me and i'll love you forever and give you a draft by hopefully Saturday.
Second
That show starring the guy I know "Free Ride" was on the other night. Actually looks to have potential which is nice. They obviously improv a lot of it , which is his forte and hopefully he wont just be good looking straight man the whole time because wackiness is where he flourishes. I now am more jealous than ever that it's not shitty.
Third
My secret love's no secret anymore. I definitely was attracted to our guest speaker in my film class on tuesday. I liked my secret crush. Until today when everyone was like "wow, I can't believe how hard you were hitting on that speaker". I can't control my level of sleaze
Fourth
Did you read the GLOWING review we got in the peak??? the paper's say we're GOLD!
Okay, back to writing
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[Mar. 2nd, 2006|02:14 am] |
It sucks so much to be trying to produce good, creative, interesting things but constantly worrying about financial constraints then running across something like this:
http://www.vendettastudios.com/
though "myspace: the movie" had it's merits
Anyway it looks like I have to go to Edmonton over the summer unless someone finds me free accomodation/food here because I just cant figure out where i'm going to pull like a 20 dollar an hour 40 hour a week job out of my ass.
So yes all wrapped up in a neat little package? NO!!!!
I need to find a job in Edmonton that is willing to have me start working when i come home about a week into May, then leave probably half way through August at the latest. Oh, and pay me enough money to ohhh fund a film.
Also, how the hell am i going to get an apartment here when i'm not here. And especially if i want to move in on like the 15th. Oh, and then i have to live alone unless someone else is moving here then? WTF?
Is there no solution to my problems which is not complex, will not end in me failing to produce anything good and will not leave me sad, uncreative and alone?
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| For serious |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|02:13 am] |
My parents opened the option today for me to stay in Vancouver and they'd pay room and board and/or for part of my movie if I wanted or needed. This was surprising. But, the relationship I have with my parents and my lack of understanding of their finances makes me very reluctant to accept this. I know they want to make sure I come out of school with some amazing product under my belt to then become rich and famous and happy but I'm not willing to accept their financial ruin as a part of this. My mom and dad questionably work jobs they dont like to support us so both my brother and I are wary of handouts. Now I just don't know what to do. All the options are open again. There was something comforting about just having one choice. gak.
Also, today I watched a lot of "entourage" and it got me depressed because i see myself in it when i think of my relationship with my more wheller-dealer successful friends. I am that awkward guy they buy drinks and try to get laid and have fun with pranks. there's a wonderful level of comaraderie but you still are just a friend of THE guy. I can't even imagine myself as THE guy but if I want to go where i want to and do what I want to I need to be there eventually. Thus, a dramedy has become a haunting glimpse into the future I want to avoid.
Finally, Animal Collective is this week. What's the plan duders? Mayana do you still have that ticket to unload on me? Ian where should we meet etc.
lets plan man
love
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